Friday, February 17, 2012

Feeling Connected

You know when you have a feeling or a thought and you read someone else having that exact same experience, and even though you know this should not be shocking because we're all from similar stock, you find yourself feeling shocked anyway, because, wow, someone else totally understands the way you feel.

I've been going through some stuff, and it's almost become an OCD thing-- my inability to stop thinking about it has made me sleepless, caused me to lose my appetite, and generally made me a distracted, jumpy person.

And then I found this simple quote tonight:

"Anxiety is a thin stream of fear trickling through the mind. If encouraged, it cuts a channel into which all other thoughts are drained." Somers Roche

That. That is what I'm feeling, and that is what is happening. In times like this, prayer works best for me, prayer and meditating on the Psalms. But knowing someone else (most likely everyone else at some point) has felt this intense fear that eventually takes over every other thought is just... comforting.

And though the fear and anxiety are still very much with me, I guess what I'm saying is misery truly does love company.


Monday, February 6, 2012

Back on the Horse

Habits. Quitting the bad ones and forming good ones-- supposedly if you can do something for 30 days straight (or not do it) whichever way it is, that becomes your habit. So, eating really badly for like several years straight, haha, which is SO EASY, is a habit. So, today was just day one of South Beach. I'm craving carbs HARD and have a headache.

I can't wait until week 1 is over.

Two other habits I'd like to cultivate? Daily Bible reading and daily writing sessions.

30 days and I'm good... right?