Wednesday, November 30, 2011


Because I want to create something that will change your mind. Something that will arrest you, the sort of thing that will force a pause into any conversation. I await the look of awe on your face right before you mumble, “You really did it.”

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Sleeping Games

Sleep doesn't like me anymore. Well, unless I take drugs, then it likes me fine. But, ugh. Last night I finally fell asleep around 1 a.m., only to wake up again at 2:30, 4:30, 5:52 and 6:02 (had a whole dream during that last 10 minutes). I miss being able to sleep anytime, anywhere. Is this part of getting older or an indication that my stress level is just a little higher this year?

I'm way ahead on my grading, which is very exciting and completely unlike me. Now, I need to clean my house and cook a meal or two, maybe do some laundry. The husband has cooked dinner every time, and he folded clothes last night. He's going for husband of the year, that one.

I have the Wii in my room now and a bluray/DVD player (got it for NOTHING. Like it was 40.00 after a coupon and a sale, regularly 160! It has all the bells and whistles, even wi-fi!) Had a gift card for Amazon left over from my birthday, and I got: Murumasa for the Wii and Star Ocean: Last Hope International for the PS3. The first one is hand drawn Japanese art while the second one is the more traditional anime look. I'm excited to try both. Next week, I'm done with classes until January 9, so I should be able to get some playing time in in between the baking, cleaning, and general time with my three boys. And reading. And yes, writing. Got a couple short stories cooking now, alongside the longer work. Or maybe they're part of the longer work... time will tell.

Thanksgiving was wonderful. Talked my sister and her husband into learning Settlers of Catan and got quite a few games in. LOVE that game.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

All of my goodies have arrived. Now I'm wishing they hadn't. It's SO much harder to grade when 900 pages of Stephen King goodness is just sitting there, begging to be read. I read 224 pages the first day it came. I've been pretty good today, grading papers and speaking to my family, haha. But as soon as final grades are in, oh, honey. The reading and game playing that shall commence.

In other news, I'm not making my weight goals. Bah. Humbug. I will try to do better tomorrow. I hate the yo-yoing I do. It's just dumb of me. DUMB.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Get the government involved, and you may as well sit back and relax.

I took the day off. I feel like crap. May as well rest and take meds and chill a bit. Oh, and grade a few papers along the way.

I ordered the new Stephen King book, 11/22/63, this book, Final Fantasy XIII for the PS3, and the bluray combo pack of the final Harry Potter movie from Amazon. The tracking information says my SK book "arrived" in my city of residence last THURSDAY. I know Friday was a holiday and all, but it's Tuesday and still no book. The other items all "arrived" here yesterday morning at 9 a.m. -- still none of them either. Does this mean they think they delivered them? Or does "arrival" just mean they got to my nearest post office, and now they're taking 2-3 days to walk the less than a mile distance to my door? Because seriously, we live right next to a post office. Gah. Stupid.

And I can't find anywhere online that explains if arrival means the same as delivered. Their codes aren't online. What I can find is a lot of complaining about the so-called tracking USPS provides. Apparently, I shouldn't worry because lots of folks have this issue, but I never have. At least, not with Amazon. I always received things super fast. Bah, humbug. It can't be the Christmas rush already, it just can't.

I want my stuff, darn it!

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Sick and Getting Behind

And I'm sick. This fall has caught up on me in a weird kind of way. Like, I always say, "Wow, how can it be this late in the year?" But this year, it's more like-- why would it snow? It's too early. And then I literally remember it's November already. So the fact that I'm sick today has me saying wondering if it's because it just seemed too early to get the flu shot. But it wasn't. Ugh. I'm half asleep timewise.

Still, one of the colleges I teach for ends their quarter the week of Thanksgiving. Makes final grading a nightmare, but is so nice to be left with just two classes and the tutoring after that.

December is going to be awesome. I guess if I do have the awful-for real-two week flu, now's the time to get it over with.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

New Fascinations and Bad Habits

Midnight Me is happy and free and feeling the quiet house. Morning me HATES midnight me. Stupid midnight me, ruining everything.

I haven't been this tired in a long time. I'm always saying I'm tired, and I've learned that like 80% of the time that really means "I'm bored" or "I must beat the air with meaningless words because it's quiet." But today? Today, all I wanted in the world was to lie back down on my comfy, comfy bed and just sleep until it's not morning anymore. Fall-back hour and all.

It's midnight me's fixation with something new that is to blame. Over the weekend I celebrated my birthday. It was awesome. Dinner out, breakfast out, a dozen yellow roses (my favorite), a gorgeous pink and white chocolate cake, money for Amazon, seeing Wicked in Cincinnati, 100 cash, a shopping spree with the husband, AND. AND FINAL FANTASY XII FOR PS2. This game, people, this game. I had no idea the Final Fantasy games were pretty much just like the Tales games-- RPG and story and beautiful graphics. I never should have started, folks, because now it's all that I want to do.

There aren't a lot of kids to tutor today, so I may actually get some grading done after all.

You know it's bad when you've developed a bit of a crush on a make-believe person in a video game. But there it is.

But seriously. midnight me? If you're listening, just put the controller down and GO TO SLEEP.