Tuesday, August 23, 2011

She was bags full of candy, diets on some future Monday, and a wit, subtle but sharp. She was long hugs and all softness, the smell of Chanel No. 5.

She was a Christian, a reader, and a lifelong card player.

My grandma went home to be with the Lord this morning at the age of 96. I will miss her.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

My Life Choices Make for Good Internet Fodder

I realize now that PhD or not (I'm going to be applying this fall) I will probably always be an adjunct. If the program pays for my PhD, then I can't see a downside-- be an adjunct with or without a PhD. I actually do enjoy learning and liked getting my masters and writing my thesis for that. Still, it's pretty depressing. I love teaching and wish it could be a full time gig, but until then I will keep doing part time at 3 different colleges, teaching more than a full time professor while still getting paid far less.

Monday, August 8, 2011

Of Plans and Lists

I love having a plan. When I don't, when I'm sort of drifting through life, I get depressed. And I love making plans-- from the minutest of things like "What to Clean Today" to MY FUTURE, written just like that at the top of a paper, all white and ready for my brilliance.

Like now, I just pulled up my calculator on the computer, decided that I should finish grading papers by next Sunday, which gives me 6 days to grade 60 papers. That's ten papers a day, which is completely doable in two 5 paper chunks. Now, I have done this sort of calculation many, many times over the years, and I don't believe I've EVER actually followed through on it. I'll grade a few then end up spending an all nighter making sure they're done before it's too late.

But it sure feels good to have a plan.

My plan for this year? Go to department meetings at the university I'll be adjuncting for, get to know the faculty there; apply for my PhD, preferably at more than one university.

I'm a listmaker who rarely follows her lists, and that's... okay.